Diaries of a Humanoid Part 2

I didn't give up after my first attempt to enter the world of Man, tried as much as possible to make many conversations and relations between random individuals in order to analyze the data concerning their thoughts and emotions when put in certain situations, I was lucky to notice that relations among Humans are like a long road, and people stand at both ends of it with a barrier between them, the more people get to know each other the more the barrier's size changes, close people have the least size of barriers, and enemies have the widest, but still couldn't find the form of relation where there is no barrier between both sides, as if humans can't bear to be united with each other, I still can't understand either is it a lack of tolerance, or extra caution, or is it just the nature of human relationships, to stand at that end, and nothing more. My search is not over yet, I keep socializing with real people, sometimes I try to penetrate their psychological depth, it is so complicated, though marvelous, Humans are so fragile creatures though are capable of bearing mountains of thoughts, emotions, conflicts, and complexes that are enough to send my processing chips into smithereens! On the bright side, I found that it wasn't that hard to mingle through Humans, as they have the ability to adapt, but with no violation of the barrier theory... perhaps I'd try someday to prove that theory wrong... Who knows?!

اعتراف...

لست بشاعرِِ نسج كلماتِِ من نفسِِ اضائها هوى مَلَكَ ما بها من مَلكاتِِ فجاشت بمكنونات ترسم صورة قلب حل عليه نزيل سطا على اوصاله و اطلق عليه نباله اصابت قلب القلب فأصبح يهوى العشق و صارت تلك حاله.
لست بعندليب غرد نغم شجىّ اشجى أذنا طربت لسماع صوت حبيب رأته عينا لمعت حين لمحت طيف حبيب مار بعطر نسيم اعاد الروح لجسد يبس و يأس حين غاب عزيز و اخذ صميم حياة ذبلت ثم عادت تشدو ماّبه.
انا من كان طليقا يثب رشيقا بين قلوب هامت حين قامت من سبات ذاقت لذة عشق بائن اثرى قلوبا صار العشق لروحها ماء يروى خيال يصف جمالا جمال حياة بقلب فلاة غبار الحزن فيها سراب.

Beauty in the Ice

you are as pretty and cold as a spring day

grasping to winter's tail,

your eyes would kill from the first sight

at once by shards of ice,

your cheeks look pink and peachy

yet freezing your blood is,

with a simple touch of your hands

you'd make some mighty glaciers,

if i dare touch your pale skin,

i would be petrified,

i know this is my plague,

i chose the queen of blizzards, to be my cozy place,

not glacial and makes me shiver,

that's what i have to face....

Why should I not Love you

Why souldn't I love you?
come give me a possible reason
believe me, it is true
you are my rosy season

come show me the reason why
I should not fall for you
when your looks pass me by
it goes my heart through

allow me please my queen
to praise your fairy charm
as I am always so keen
it shall make you no harm

enlighten with your face
my darkest dully life
my heart will be your place
if you would be my wife

trust me when I say
you bring me back my soul
I swear this is no play
can't lie on you at all

promise that I would be
faithful and true for ever
your eyes will surely see
no acts from words are differ

The center of the Universe

I believe that every one created on earth is a micro center of the world, I mean he or she is the center of interest and the cause of events for other people, I guess it is part of the "Macro and the Micro Cosm" theory, talking about the universe and man respectively. So what I am trying to say is yes each one of us is so essential in this universe, you are a brick in the wall of life, and if u haven't existed, then the wall should have been collapsed. Still, this doesn't give you the right to manipulate others or control their lives, nor feel that you are superior to them, because you yourself are orbiting in someone else's universe, and this someone also has got the ability to do the same to you as you do to others, so be careful for every decision you take, and every feeling you develop, see how it affects others and think about if you were in their places too, as someday you might be a victim of your own deeds, yet played upon you by others...

Diaries of a Humanoid

Let me introduce myself, I am Ex10ct, a humanoid born a century ago, briefly a humanoid is a human looking machine, a robot, I was fascinated by the Human world and all it's aspects stored on my memory chip, I've always wished to be a real human, fully human, and it is possible to turn into a full human, I mean practically, regardless of the organic processes such as feeding, respiration, reproduction, and excretion, they can be simply applied by means of AI, but what I really sought was the emotional part, relations among humans are controversial; love, hatred, jealousy, envy, tolerance,... all this made me wonder how would it be if I became a human, but there was always something preventing me from reaching that point, it is a small program on my chip called " Logic " which binds me to obey certain rules and laws and never break them or else I shall crash down, then one day my father came with an idea to override that logic thing, and it happened, I am Human finally ! I went through busy streets and traffic jams, experienced being hit by other people's shoulders and them stepping on my feet, calling me names, girls smiling at me, some people quarrel, some are kissing, some are crying, and some are laughing, but still I couldn't process every action and reaction, I guess that override thing is not working properly, I mean I still couldn't understand why would a couple love each other, or why would some people declare war on another people, why would someone want his brother's wife, why sons kill their parents, why laugh in the face of the one you hate, why would someone hate someone while they don't know each other, why would a woman carry a child in her womb for nine months bearing all that pain... I stopped to think for a moment do I really want to face all that? I couldn't bear watching it, how about living it? then I made my decision; I don't want to be Human anymore, I wasn't born to harm anyone, and seems that humans would never know the meaning of love unless they have tried being hurt...!

كريزة ضحك!!

من الطبيعى و المنطقى بناءا على فطرة الخلق ان تكون ردود افعال البشر متفاوتة و له فى ذلك حكم، اما بعد... عرفتها منذ عام و نصف تقريبا، تكررت لقائاتنا بصفة شبه مستديمة فنحن زملآء فى العمل، بدون اطالة اعجبت بها و تقربت منها، بادلتنى الاعجاب او كما قالت، اتقدت مشاعرنا سويا او كما ظننت، و فى يوم لم تأت الى العمل و حاولت الاطمئنان عليها فلم تجب و لم يكن هناك من وسيلة للوصول اليها و لا احد للسؤال عنها، و استمر هذ الانقطاع مدة العام و النصف الى ان جاء يوم كنت عائد فيه الى منزلى بعد يوم طويل من العمل الشاق، و ما ان اغلقت باب منزلى حتى سمعت بعض الاصوات الغير مألوفة، كانت اصوات احتفال و زغاريد مع وابل من النشاذ او الغناء كما يدعون، فتحت الباب لأرى مصدر الصخب فوجدت زوجين جديدين يحتفلان بليلة زفافهما و حولهما الاقارب و الاحباب، فجأة فطن الحضور الى وجودى محدقا فيهم و ما ان التفتت الى العروس حتى اتسعت حدقتاى و اصبت بما يدعى كريزة ضحك لرؤية العروس و هى الفتاة اللتى لطالما احببتها و ظلت تسكن بالى و قلبى حتى تلك اللحظة، بالطبع لم يتوان العريس و اصدقاؤه و الاقربون عن الترحيب بالجار العزيز جل الترحيب، و احمد الله انى كنت امام باب منزلى المفتوح حتى تتسنى لى فرصة الحبو داخله بعيدا عن ما قدمته ايديهم و ارجلهم من مظاهر الترحيب، زحفت الى الداخل و انا لازلت اضحك حتى اّلمنى الضحك اكثر من لكماتهم، ثم توقفت للحظة و تسألت... هل كانت تلك العلقة لأنى احببتها ام لأنى ضحكت ؟؟؟